Today was a difficult day for me.  I’m not sure if it was all the driving that made me tired and hungry or if it was just one of those days, but it didn’t go as well as I had hoped.

The Good: I did NOT have a cheesesteak from Pat’s when everyone went this afternoon.  They looked and smelled amazing.  The good thing for me was that everyone said it really wasn’t worth breaking my diet for anyway, they didn’t think the sandwiches were anything special.  That bit of information certainly made it easier to handle the smell.  We also had everyone order their sandwiches and eat them in the car–I was driving so eating a cheesesteak would have been hard even if I had wanted to give in to old habits.

The Bad: Breakfast was difficult.  The only thing I could really have (or even wanted) was an omelet.  The first time through (this is why I categorized this as the bad, there was a second time through) I got a ham & cheese omelet.  I did not realize there were peppers available so I did not get any veggies on it.  I don’t think ham is technically something I am supposed to have, as its not very lean, but I went ahead with it so that I would have something more than just eggs and cheese.  Between ham, bacon, and sausage I think ham would be the best choice.  The omelet tasted amazing but it was tiny, which of course left me feeling dissatisfied.  I saw that my brother had peppers in his omelet so decided to go back and get a veggie and cheese omelet.  I got back in line and found myself ordering a veggie and cheese omelet…with ham.  Overall, I was disappointed with how my breakfast went, because i knew I had more than a day’s worth of lean and no where near a day’s worth of veggies.  On the way home we made a pit stop at one of the plazas along the turnpike.  I knew I needed to eat more veggies, so I went over to a place that had a variety of salads.  I started by asking for a garden salad without onions, cucumbers, tomatoes, or croutons, which made me feel like I wasn’t eating very much (lettuce, peppers, and a light balsamic vinaigrette).  Right as I was finishing my order I asked the person making my salad to throw on a bit of turkey and feta cheese, even though I knew I already had plenty of protein for the day.  I’m glad I kept it to turkey though–Burger King was only a whiff away!!

The Ugly:  When I got home I was still feeling unsatisfied.  I ate my last two Medifast meals–after the last one I headed out to the kitchen (red flag–I should know by now that I shouldn’t go into the kitchen alone after I have had all my food for the day–at least not yet).  I saw cottage cheese in the fridge and had a few spoonfuls of that.  Then, I found the peanut butter and had a spoonful of that.  Then, my brother came in to the kitchen to experiment because he wanted chips and salsa to snack on but we didn’t have any salsa.  What he made turned out SUPER hot and he asked me for a way to cool it off.  We put some light buttermilk ranch in it and it was still really hot.  So I tried putting it in a dish and adding refried beans and cheese to it, hoping that the surface area would decrease the spiciness.  When it came out of the over the look and smell of it got me, so I had a few spoonfuls of that too.  I’m pretty sure refried beans are a bit too starchy for me to be eating.

Today was a day of failures mixed together with a bit of success.  I had some failures today, I ate too much protein and I snacked too much.  I think I can still be proud of myself though.  Even though I ate too much, I made better choices than I would have a year ago or even a couple months ago for that matter.  If I’m going to add meat to my salad, white meat turkey breasts is probably a good choice.  If I’m going to have something to snack on when I shouldn’t, light cottage cheese isn’t the worst thing I could have picked.  Its great that even though I mess up from time to time, I can tell that I am making progress.  Instead of the cottage cheese, not long ago I might have gone on a Sheetz run and ordered a cheesy chicken sub with ranch dressing–as a snack!  Or used the excuse that I was on vacation so I could put whatever I wanted into my body (e.g. a cheesesteak hoagie) even if its not something that I should consider food (it isn’t food just because you can digest it!).  I learned a lot about myself the last two days.  I learned that I can make the best choices possible for myself even if I can’t be perfectly on plan.  I learned that I can ask for whatever I want at a restaurant–it really doesn’t have to be on the menu.  If I ask for plain grilled chicken and broccoli, I won’t feel silly, I will feel good because I know what I want and what I need for myself and I’m going to get it.  I learned that I don’t have to focus on food to have a good time.  I can fuel my body properly while I’m on vacation and I will still feel like I’m on vacation.  It’s about relaxing and having fun, not food–focusing on the real reason you are on vacation makes it more refreshing anyway.

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